Yep, I'm gonna whore out my poetry here. Deal with it. It's kind of depressing but w/e.

Down
Further and further I sink into this pit
Leaving the light behind
Watching the earth slip past me
I feel the temperature drop
The air has changed
It’s acrid, nauseating
But I must become accustomed
This is my home now
The shadows are my family
Hope is nothing but a fairytale
Joy is naught but a fools dream
I know the truth
What you know doesn’t exist
All that’s true is this void



Freedom
You glance at the scars on my wrists
I pull on my sleeves to hide my sins
The look of disgust crosses your face
I’ve become familiar with that expression
Now you will leave me too
Like all the others did
Become indifferent, uncaring
Leaving me alone with this blade
I don’t feel the hurt of your abandonment
I don’t feel the sting of your insults
All I feel is this blade
Slicing, freeing me from your hate


Collapse
You watch as I collapse
Laughing at my dilemma
You know my pain
But do not help
I besiege death to take me
To end this torment
He grants my wish
And lets me out
Out of all the shadow and fear
Away from you all
My breathing slows
It is almost over
My blood has been spilt
It flows on your hands
I leave this world
No different than it was

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My breathing heavy, my pulse erratic
I stare down at your sleeping form
The room is peaceful but
My thought rage and swirl inside me
I’ve been planning this moment for months
Plotting my revenge on your hateful spirit
My dagger glints in the moonlight
My palm itches to feel your blood
My eyes beg to watch your last breath
I hope you lived a full life
Because now it’s over



So that's all for now kiddies. Maybe some more later....

Guess what bloggers!!!!!

That's right, I'm going to college!!! Woot woot! Go me!

Now that I have that out of the way, my weekend was pretty good.

I saw Borat yesterday.... it was alright, but if you don't like foreign hairy man-love, don't see it. lol

I don't really know what else to say....I'm pretty nervous about seating... I really really don't wanna get beat out by a freshman... bluh.

So I guess I'll stop typing and get back to my mcdonalds now. Mmmm :)

So yea, yet another sleepless night spent sitting at my computer....

Seating for concert band begins this week... flutes get seated next week... gah, I hope I do better than I did last year- fifth chair is not acceptable to me

Hoping to do better in World History this nine weeks....I'm debating going to college.

I'm thinking of becoming a band director... maybe I will. There are so many things I want to do with my life, but college was never in my plans... Gah, I just don't know

I'm unbearbly sad right now... I don't know why... I think I'll just go to bed now.....